The first thing that strikes me is your opening statement, “I thought I was getting towards body neutrality.”
Why do you speak to this in the past?
It sounds like your “lizard brain” is sending a thought: “See …. you’ll never get there,” and you believe this self-defeating thought. Remember, thoughts are just thoughts; you don’t have to believe any thoughts. You pick the thought that serves you best and leads you toward the goal you want.
If your goal is to make peace with your body… then the T: “See …. you’ll never get there” is likely not going to produce the R: I’m at peace with my body.
From my perspective, it appears that LIBERATE did exactly what it was designed for: peel the next layer of stories and thoughts about your body that needs healing. Sound like your brain was so well-entrenched into the T: “my body and attractiveness meant I didn’t get relationships.” you didn’t even know it wasn’t true into Liberate.
Celebrate this finding! It’s exactly what you needed to change this old belief that was never true and that you falsely believed for decades. Start exploring how you want to think about being attractive. Here’s a hint: don’t make it about others. Be attractive to you, and then you’ll likely attract others!
C: Being Attractive
Hope this helps, sister!